Posted by Fresh on March 18, 2002 at 10:18:48:
In Reply to: Why lurch from posted by Anthony on February 18, 2002 at 19:45:05:
You are right. The middle road is the answer.
I think the indulgence - sacrifice pattern is happening because of some superego issues I have. I think I have a lot of stress from feeling like I can't just spontaneously act. I feel like I have to make sure everything I do is okay according to some outside authoritative systems that I have adopted as my inner Protective Figure to set boundaries for me. I end up being dependent on these systems and I don't feel confidence in my ability to act on my own. And because my original protective figure (my father) was untrustworthy, I feel the need to sometimes rebel against my inner protective figure. Hence the indulgence. Then I feel like I have done wrong and I feel guilty and feel the need to be obedient again. It's all very stressful and energy-consuming. I'm a 6w7, can you tell?
I guess what I need to do is to come to terms with the fact that I need outside authoritative systems to set boundaries for me. I can have confidence in the fact that I can function well on my own guidance.
: in and out of "indulgence" and "sacrifice" ..... better to just take the middle road and to recognize what is going on rather than blaming..... you create the gluttony...indulge...blame....punish....create....indulge... you need to break the pattern if you really want to get well....
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