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Learning how to 'domesticate' for the first time


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Posted by Margaret (209.204.107.194) on August 18, 2003 at 19:55:17:

In Reply to: Re: sure, posted by Dee (66.185.85.72) on August 17, 2003 at 00:10:34:

> Hi,
> I see... well, you're probably better off postponing your purchases until you've relocated and in the mean time, go to a movie theatre and treat your self to some items at the snackbar. Remember, you don't want to shop on impulse, think it though first.

> Dee : )

****I figured since now I am stuck in a job and a lease for another year, I may as well make myself comfortable and buy some furniture instead of sitting on the floor for a whole other year.

So, guess what, I jsut bought my first brand new kitchen/dining table and four matching chairs! I unscrewed all the legs to the table and stuffed everything in my car and unloaded it and bought my first screwdrvier to put on the legs again once I get home, so I can have a nice little table and have guests come over :)
I never did this before. The tabletop is wood and the legs and chairs are white with cushions to sit on.
I also saw a black sofa and would like to purchase it and plan to call up for some moving people to ask how much to haul and move it for me.
Gosh, then I just need to buy a TV, I already saw a TV stand I'd like to put together with my new screwdriver, that and a new laptop computer, and I should be pretty set, even ready to ask people to come over for a visit, cause I will have someplace for them to sit and visit!

My gosh, although interesting, this feels also foreign and strange to me, because I feel less and less independent, although I feel more comfortable, I don't feel so free and independant as much. Because now I have to depend on other people to help me move especially once I purchase this black couch. This is going to feel really strange for me for some reason.

In a way I am uncomfortable, I don't feel I can 'escape into the night without a trace and not have to worry or look behind' anymore. I wouldn't be able to do that anymore. Again, my defense, my prime sense of self-defense, feels being eroded, and although I am gaining 'creature comfort', I am losing this defense. The old way of defending myself.

What I have not figured out yet however, though is what new defense is going to replace it, now that the old one is eroded?



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