Posted by loki (126.96.36.199) on September 30, 2003 at 20:58:40:
In Reply to: Re: If you kill yourself, your family and friends will blame themselves for the rest of their lives. posted by Don't Worry About It (188.8.131.52) on February 13, 2003 at 22:43:20:
Have you messed up as many times in life as I have. I keep trying to find a place for myself in this world but as soon as I do I blow it. Not quietly or with little things but in the most egregious way possible. I f**k up on a royal scale, things that I cannot forget and will haunt me forever or will not reconcile themselves for time beyond hope. I'm a smart good looking guy with all kinds of things going for me. Yet I still find a way to blow it for myself. No one else ever gets hurt thankfully. I go to sleep each night hoping that I will not wake up. Sure, some people love me and would miss me (and probably think less of me for choosing suicide). I do not know what my beliefs are in the afterlife so that's not a consideration. People are starting to judge me on the mistakes I have made and there is not enough time left to prove that I am honourable and good. Where did I go so wrong?!? Why do I always f**k it up in the end?
I would miss my cat; maybe that's all that keeps me here.
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