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Posted by raz62 ( on April 09, 2003 at 11:41:55:

In Reply to: Why? posted by Margaret ( on April 03, 2003 at 19:51:44:

> Everything I worked for, 11 hour day everyday weeks, I was supposed to get a commission check for everything that I helped close these past two months. Today they announce to me I am not going to get it because there is a 'new rule' - I need to split it with some young punk kid who just started the other week, and did NONE of the work I've been slaving over these past whole TWO *months* and obviously did *nowhere* near what I did.

> It doesn't stop there. I stayed late today (another 12 hour day) after they announced the new fuckyou plan instead of leaving early like I should have, becasue they were goin out and I didn't want to show them I no longer wanted to be part of the team, so I stayed 12 hours despite my headache, just to be a 'good sport'.

> They drive fast, and lose me behind a red light and don't wait for me.
> They never told me where they were going. They blew me off. Totally blew me off. I called on my boss's cell phone. He said he'd tell me where they were when they get there. He never called. They blew me off. So I stayed late again, for nothing.

> I left my whole life behind. I left everything. For this. All for this. All to get ripped off, cheated, to live with animals, to get ripped off and cheated and fucked over again and again and again and again and again.
> And again.

> Why did they lure me here just to fuck me over and over again and again and again and again and again?
> I don't know what to do anymore. The people here, they fucked me over so bad, so hard. They fucked me over, I had it really good over there in NJ. I really had it really good. They fucked me over here. They fucked me over. They made me lose everything I ever had and then fucked me over.

> Why did they have to do that to me? Why did they do that? Why did they have to fuck me over like that? Why did they have to do that? That was so unfair. That was so bad. Why? Why did they fuck me over? Why did they fuck me over? Why? Why? What did I do? What did I do?

Margaret, I'm assuming you are a 4, but what is your wing and subtype? I'm a 4/3 Social, and I was pretty badly burned at my current job. Basically, I worked under someone whom I could not stand, but she held the job that was the next step up for me, and paid $15K more a year. Well, she left, and I got her title, duties, and office ....BUT NO PAY RAISE. My boss said "oh well, company policy, we have a raise freeze." They did not hire someone to take on my old duties, either, so as you can imagine I was absolutely furious. The terrible thing I accepted was that we are in a crappy job market so I kept the job & the paychecks coming but found happiness in other things. Believe me, I'm out of here once the job market picks up -- unless I get that $15K finally. Also, there are workers here who make more money than me and snub me socially, or the males snub me (I'm 40) while hanging all over the 25 -yr-old receptionist . . .it took many many months for me to just calm down and see that they were a bunch of stupis asses and it was their problem, not mine.

My advice to you? Go ahead and use this Board and anyone else to get your anger out through verbalizing it, I did, even though others told me to stop being so negative (Type 5s were especially impatient with my constant harping on it) -- but too bad, 4s deal with things by expressing those emotions until they have been reduced and dealt with. Also, moving is not such a bad idea if you can afford it, but there are "Bad" people everywhere, don't forget that.

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