Posted by katti (126.96.36.199) on April 18, 2003 at 13:58:57:
In Reply to: What is the meaning of life? posted by Justin (188.8.131.52) on April 15, 2003 at 11:46:56:
i have just read your original post- and some of the replies you got-
i am a 4 w 5- i only got to know this after a relatoionship break -up. i know it takes two to tango- but i now realised i was going through the lowest level of 4 - i was moody , depressed, hopeless and helpless - i dont agree that people who are depressed, don't admit it- i knew i was depressed - but could not find a way out. i believed i did not deserve to be loved (i still think that) and so believes my partner would be better off without me- and i did all i could (sort of unconsciously and consciously) to drive my partner away- and then i said, ''look- thats what you really deserve- nobody can love you'
a year has almost passed now - and still i find it hard to find a meaning to life- i try to go on- somtimes i wake up and ask myself what am i living for. it's hard- but i know i cant give up - if i give up on ourselves, who can 'save' me?? - the answer is nobody- but im learning something - im not giving advice or anything like that - but im just sayong what works for me occasionally - im just trying to learn to love myself - in the sens of that im 'worth' the love other have for me. and another thing - which is mor important- im trying to count my 'blessings'- i think each one of us has many postivie things in life- even if going through a depression blinks out these things (by the way- i have been diagnosed as having non-endogenous depression) -
i hope i did not make things worse for you- but i thiugh i should write and share my experince- others who ahev written have succeed to fine a meaning to their life- but im still struggling - just like you :-)
> What is the meaning of life? What is the meaning of YOUR life? I have been lost ever since a breakup last year, and to date, after having going through the paths which have led me to nowhere... I am still here. If you care, please share with me your understanding of YOUR meaning of life.
> Thank you
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