Posted by Margaret (22.214.171.124) on July 19, 2003 at 15:31:47:
In Reply to: My history of dealing with that 'status' thing posted by Margaret (126.96.36.199) on July 19, 2003 at 14:39:49:
For some reason, I wish I never wrote this long thing. I don't even want to care about that status thing anymore. I don't want to care about being embarrased or what people think of me anymore. I don't want it to stop me from having a relationship with someone another human being.
And it really makes me feel bad to think I might be embarrased by someone intimate and can't be seen with them because I 'm worried about what others would think of me. That makes me feel bad. It makes me feel bad for that person. Because they are human too. My gosh, that makes me feel bad. My gosh, does that make me feel bad. My gosh.
No. I don't want to think this anymore. No, I don't. I don't, because I don't like it.
I guess bottom line is, what I was trying to say earlier was, I just don't know how to protect my feelings from being hurt by others who do care about those things, I just don't know how, (other than to stay away - and I wish that wouldn't have to be the only solution? )that's all.
Oh man, I feel bad now. I need to go.
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