Posted by Lakhesis (126.96.36.199) on July 23, 2003 at 01:13:10:
In Reply to: Re: keep your wits about you posted by katy (188.8.131.52) on July 22, 2003 at 22:26:25:
Thanks for your caring and concern. It will all be alright though, I'm sure. I'm just a bit scared about how easily I fell into a dysfunctional trap, all for the sake of some male attention and some cuddles.
The truth is, I DO feel ashamed about my need for physical intimacy: I feel that I don't deserve it, that to desire it is desparate and needy and weak. This is definitely something I need to work on.
I can already see the gifts here: I think that as 4's, we're very lucky to be able to see the gold in the darkness.
The guy involved is very typical of the kind of man I get involved with. This time, I've been able to acknowledge how unhealthy our tie is, how unhealthy each of us are, and how important it is to nip this in the bud and say 'No. I'm not going there.' For me, this is an incredible shift.
Hugs to you...
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