Posted by Margaret (220.127.116.11) on August 07, 2003 at 16:14:20:
In Reply to: Re: you can, yes, IF posted by Margaret (18.104.22.168) on August 07, 2003 at 15:59:56:
***And yes, I'm sure I look like an ass hole writing this.
I should be thankful I am not handicapped, have all my limbs, not on a dialysis machine, etc, etc, there are so many situations out there and people out there who are in so much worse condition, I know, I know, I sound foolish complaining about my situation compared to them, but still, I'm just not happy.
I don't want to live here where I am right now. I want to live up north on a lake and THEN I'll be happy. I would also like someone to come with me, but most likely he can't, so I don't know. I don't know. I just know I DON'T like living here and I'm not happy. I want to live up north and I don't know how I will ever be able to STAND living here another year. I can't STAND it here. And I DON'T want to go back midwest for Labor Day and see everyone else all happy with mortgages and families, kids, successful jobs, lives, blah, blah, I DON'T want to see them with all that and here I am with jack SHIT. I DON'T. I just DON'T.
I DON'T want to see that friend of mine from way back. Her and my other friends from back then. NONE of them are living lives like mine. NONE of them. They all have the typcial happy married lives, and I not only do I not have jack, I am still single and although would like to get married to another freedom-lover, I DO NOT WANT to be tied down like them.
I just wish I had some companionship who also wanted the same thing, but nooooo, NO ONE out there does, NO ONE, and I'm not talking about young twenty something KIDS, I'm talking about people MY AGE.
I'm sorry to be 'bitching' like this, but, I'm just so tired of not getting ANYTHING in life, I'm so TIRED of it.
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