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Enneagram Type 4 Board Archive Re: specialPosted by Dee (24.156.129.68) on September 19, 2003 at 06:45:31: In Reply to: special posted by Hank (152.163.252.8) on September 19, 2003 at 04:41:32:
> So why is it that I have this feeling that I'm so special and different? It just hit me this week. It's because people tell me that I am all the time! Even when it's about tasks or skills or aspects of who I am that I think I'm only average (or worse) at, I'm am repeatedly complimented. I hear that I'm a great musician, and have done an incredible job songwriting and performing; I do a great job at work, which comes with relatively little time and effort; I've done great things for my church and my community; I have such deep, accurate insights, and am a gifted spiritual seeker; I'm an outstanding writer and always have such valuable things to say...I hear all this and more on a regular basis. > I am not posting this here to boost my own ego or to improve my image among people here--quite the opposite, I'm looking for other ways to see this problem. It seems to come from the 2's lack of and fixation on identity, but I wonder if other types experience the same thing, or something similar. I know that no one is immune to feeling good or bad based on what others (or life/God/the spirit) tells them in some form or another. But maybe it affects 2's more than some other types because, as I've found, we lack the spiritual foundation in who we are, our identity. > I could probably go on about this, but I'll leave it at that for now and see if or how anyone else experiences this. Hi Hank, People tend to want to study me somehow. I get this all the time. I am told daily how I look, and daily am asked why I'm so quiet. This has an impact on me that isn't always positive. Their influence on me makes me want to go farther into myself, and being here for example is a release for me.
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