Posted by PM Dawn (220.127.116.11) on February 18, 2003 at 16:10:08:
In Reply to: Re: 3 with 5- what are your thoughts or experience posted by Primer Gray (18.104.22.168) on February 17, 2003 at 22:54:00:
> >I'm not sleeping with him- so don't assume that's what I meant by that. Lots of sexual tension though. You are absolutely right about me being scared of him leaving. I am much needier than him. Although- if he were so drugged out on benzos he would probably worry more about me not being around. Maybe not but that's the impression I get. He has generalized anxiety- He's had it for at least 8 to 10 years. He tried to get off the meds and it got worse because they told him to go off cold turkey. Now he is taking klonopin and zoloft too. I think he is more depressed now than anything else. I haven't really ever seen him anxious though he says he is inside. The drugs kinda make him not care about anything. He told me about one girlfriend he had in his twenties where he broke up with her and she just went kinda crazy- not eating, sleeping for over a month. Just really hysterical. I don't want that to happen to me but at the same time I could identify with that. He is addictive I guess. Very strange. Do you have that effect on people?
I wonder what would happen if I just quit emailing him or IM. I don't call him except about once a week or so if something important comes up. Do you think that's what I should do? Would he probably just let me drift away? How much contact do most 5's want?
In October his wife had to work one Saturday and she asked me to watch the kids all day- age 5,2 and a baby. With his anxiety he didn't want to do it. I thought he would be off shopping or something fun but he stayed there the whole day with me- sitting very close and just hanging out. He didn't leave at all and he had the whole day free. This is someone who is usually out the door going to Best Buy or HiFi Buys or computer shows whenever possible. It was very comfortable. Other times he seems nervous around me- like he doesn't really know what to say. He can talk to perfect strangers about computer products, software, etc. but around me he can be shy. On a gut level sometimes I think he is in love with me but then he'll do something else or act so remote that I would say- no way. Very hard to read. Anyway...I appreciate your input. Thanks for listening.
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